Me And My Drooley McGee

This is my new jam I sing with Emmy.  She loves to drool when she plays.  Not sure if it’s excitement drool or something that just happens when she lays on her back and talks, but it’s adorable.  I’m enjoying the pre-teething drool while I can.

She has also recently become obsessed with her hands.  She likes to rub them together, and hold them, and suck on them.  While I take a shower I can see her hands rising over the top of the bassinet.  She raises them up in the air and clasps them together, rubbing them around in one another.  This is helping her become a pro at grabbing and holding onto her links.  Not sure why she is still anti-putting things in her mouth, but I can totally be okay with that phase holding off for a long time!  She does, however, LOVE to lick blankets and loveys.  Got to keep an eye on that girl…

So, I want to cut my hair off.  Like, all of the hair.  I have never had my hair cut shorter than my shoulders, but I am thinking of going a little nuts with it.  Somewhere between shoulders and pixie.  Currently it is about halfway down my back.  Don’t be jealous, it doesn’t look as good, like you may be imagining.  Due to my PCOS, as my hair grows, it grows to a point.  A scraggly, thin, horrid looking point of thin hair.  Thin hair should not be long.  The biggest problem is that my hair dresser that I super trust is now almost an hour away.  No chance I could do that, so I’m going to have to trust this huge hair cut to a STRANGER!! Ah!  First world problems, right?  I know.

I almost forgot!  The little lady is also learning to roll onto her sides!  So talented!!  I am so impressed with each little thing she learns.  Babies are amazing.  Like little human sponges! Learning, learning, learning!


Three Months!

Whoa! My baby girl is three months old today!  I can’t believe how quickly AND slowly time seems to be going.  I think the only reason time seems slow is because her sleep is still wonky.  Once she is sleeping through the night (soon!?!) I’m sure time will seem to zoom by!

So, here are a couple pictures of my sweetie from this morning.  I forgot to take the picture with her 12 month hat on (showing the progression of her growing into her hat), so I will do that tomorrow.  If I remember…


Check out this flower!  How embarrassing, mom!
Check out this flower! How embarrassing, mom!

A Real Camera

We have a real camera.  It’s used very infrequently, but my husband uploaded some of the pictures last night.  They consisted of pregnancy pictures from week 24, pictures of Emmy in the hospital, and a few others from a couple weeks ago.  It is pretty amazing to see what pictures look like taken on a nice camera instead of a phone.  They are really beautiful.  I could be biased though, since most of them are of my sweet baby girl.

Here are a few of the really good ones!  I’m pretty sure this will be the first time I’ve shown my face in the blogosphere.  Hope it’s not too scary!

Just 18 weeks ago... Amazing!
Just 18 weeks ago… Amazing!
Happy mama!
Happy mama!
4th of July
4th of July
Celebrating Fall while modeling one of my hats that I am going to try to sell on Etsy!
Celebrating Fall while modeling one of my hats that I am going to try to sell on Etsy!


Well, there you have it.  Just a few of my favorite photos from our long forgotten camera.  I hope to take lots more pictures with the camera so that her photo albums (if I ever get around to making one of those) will look great!

Invisible Paci

My baby loves to suck on her invisible paci.  Once she falls asleep while nursing, she continues to suck while she’s sleeping.  It is absolutely adorable.  I kind of wish she liked an actual pacifier, because I’m sure it would help sooth her more than the air does.  I’ve tried over and over again, with multiple types and shapes though. She’s having none of it.  I respect her decision…. plus she goes nuts when I even attempt to give her one.  She’s the boss!

So, a few weeks ago, we started moving her bed time up to 7:30 from 8:00 because by the time we got her into bed at 8:00, she was beyond tired.  7:30 was working for a while, but now it seems like even that is too late for her.  By the time we get into bed she is a wreck.  She’s sleeping great during the day.  She takes an early morning nap around 10:00 — usually for an hour to and hour and a half.  Then she usually takes an uber long nap in the afternoon for two-three hours.  She’s definitely sleeping enough during the day.  Not that her being extra tired by bedtime is necessarily bad.  She falls asleep quickly after her meltdown, but I don’t want her to think of bedtime as a time to be hysterical.  The hubs and I are going to move her bath time up ten minutes and get her into bed ten minutes earlier to see how that works for her.

Also, I am personally not a fan of bed sharing, or co-sleeping, or whatever else people are calling it these days (because I am 95% sure that I would injure her.  I sleep HARD), but I will say that I do not feel ready to put her in her own room.  I still wake up a few times a night to check on her.  I’m obviously not ready to have two doors between us at night.  I wonder if I ever will be?  I mean, the dogs sleep in the room with us, so why should she have to sleep by herself?  Seems unfair.  I don’t want her to be lonely.  Or…. I just don’t want her away from me…. I’m betting it’s the latter.  I think she will be in our room until at least five months… longer if she still fits in her bassinet. Tehehe…

So, when did you move your baby into another room?  Was the transition smooth?

We’ve Got A Mover!

No, it’s not crawling.  She’d have to be able to pick that big ol’ head up off the floor for that.  No, it’s a sort of wiggle.  It seems quite effective at helping her move in a counter clockwise circle.  I set her on her rug, with toys set to her right (because that’s her favorite side), and went to the bathroom.  When I got back, she was in this position…

Looky what I can do!
Looky what I can do!

Imagine my surprise!! First time she’s done anything like this.  Little wiggle worm on my hands!  So exciting!

Now she is passed out for her afternoon nap in my lap.  Love my little lady!



Normal People Pants — Kind Of — Not Really…

Okay, so, my maternity pants are all dirty.  I’m not sure why this is happening, but ever since we moved into this house, my clothes tend to come out of the wash smelling… weird.  Like vomit.  JUST my clothes.  Emmy’s, mine, and my husbands can all be in the wash together, and mine come out stinking.  It doesn’t happen every time either.  Am I leaking some kind of hormone into my clothes that makes the smell like vomit when fused with detergent??  What is the deal?!

Anyway, my pants are all dirty.  I have a skirt, but wasn’t feeling it.  I grabbed my largest “normal people pants” and quietly said “pleeeeease” to myself.  Well, they went over the thighs!  STEP ONE!  (This is the first time I’ve been able to do this)  Then I went to button them.  Not even close, but I remembered the early pregnancy trick…. a hair tie through the button hole and around the button! WIN!  Sure, my butt crack hangs out when I sit down, but I will take it.  Just don’t look at my butt crack, k?


Oh, The Blocked Ducts…

Ugh, people.  I have two, very large, very painful, blocked ducts in my right breast.  This is what I get for having one good run of sleep this week (five hours straight on Monday night).  I have applied heat, and I have been rubbing like crazy.  So far, still lumpy, but less so.  It doesn’t help that that is baby girls least favorite side to nurse on.  I’m hoping for the big unclogging leak to happen soon!  Maybe I will go out in public. insuring that it will happen soon.

My little lady seems to be feeling a little more herself today.  She has been so “off” lately.  Not smiling as much, crying for no reason (or none I can see), been very clingy (which I do not mind at all), and sleeping a lot, but only in small spurts (other than the five hours in a row mentioned above).  Today she has been smiling and generally much more awake and happy.  She has been coughing and sneezing a little today.  I’m wondering if the temperature change is getting her a little.  It’s been in the upper 60’s the past couple days!  Yay for the Fall weather, but boo for the allergies that come along with it.  She has also been very fond of sucking on her fist lately.  I wonder when she will stick out that thumb and realize that it is a much better sucking thing than an entire fist?  Only time will tell!

My family is coming in to town this weekend.  It will be the first time they’ve seen her since the day she was born!  She is 12 weeks old now!  They won’t know what to think!  I just hope they are okay with me being clingy and not wanting to share too much.  Anyone else a non-sharer?  I’m wondering if it’s because I am with her all day and never really have to share, or if this is just a typical mom thing?  Either way… she is mine!

I also want to apologize for the moodiness of my post yesterday.  I really appreciate all of the support towards myself and my writing!  You all really made my day yesterday!

Now I am going to my happy place… sitting in my recliner while my baby girl naps in my lap.  Maybe I can even get a little crocheting done!  Happy hump day, everyone!

Yowzah, Learned My Lesson!

I have found the touchiest subject on the internet, and it’s not religion.  Surprise!  It’s breastfeeding in public.  Who knew?

My post about my personal preference to not bare-breastfeed in public went over well with some, and went over terribly with others.  I was called ignorant, and accused of trying to “protect children from an important learning moment.”  Okay, I’m sorry that my preference to not have a breast out in public is so offensive to everyone.  I should have been clear and said that if you want to breastfeed in public without a cover that you should.  Oh wait, I did that? Yikes…  Okay, well, maybe I should have said that all I was asking was that you understand that some people (even breastfeeding mothers) are not always comfortable having/seeing a breast out in public, regardless of that breast being used to feed a baby.  Oh wait, that was the entire point?  Man, I really must suck at life.

I guess I was expecting a few comments like this… “Wow, that stinks that you are so uncomfortable with breastfeeding in public!  It really does make things so much easier, but I can understand that not everyone wants to do that.  I personally would not cover up if asked, but that is my personal preference.”  Instead I got some of the rudest comments I’ve ever seen.  (In case you go looking for them, I did not accept them.  No negativity on my blog, thanks.  It’s a mommy blog, people.  Be nice!  Not everyone mommies the same way you do.)

Why is everyone so angry about this?  I wrote that so that other breastfeeding mothers who have anxiety about bare-breastfeeding in public wouldn’t feel alone.  I wrote that so that people who ARE comfortable, would realize that not everyone on the planet wants to see you feed your baby in a restaurant, and it’s not because they hate you.  I was not calling you a disgusting, ugly, horrid, vile monster, I was simply trying to explain why some people may ask you to cover up.  It’s not a hatred of children, or breasts, or you, it’s because some people just do not feel comfortable.  Honestly, I am a little jealous that you are okay with it, because I am not.  My body would probably literally stop producing milk do to extreme anxiety.  So, way to go!  But being mad at me because I suggested that if a mother ask you to cover up so that she doesn’t have to explain to her children about breastfeeding at that particular moment, is ridiculous.  Think about it from the point of view of a mother who is not okay with it.  She isn’t a terrible person, she just has a different opinion than you do.  And if you don’t want to cover up?  Politely decline, stating your right to breastfeed in public.  You don’t have to hop up on the table and scream that the woman is trying to take away your rights to feed your child (that seems like the approach some of you would have taken, based on the comments I received).

Here is my preference.  I will keep my breasts under a cover in public, due to my extreme discomfort in having them out.  And yes, I have a nursing bra, but it doesn’t have a neat little hole cut out so that only my nipple shows.  The entire front of the bra comes down to expose the entire breast.  I’m sorry I don’t have the other type of nursing bra that apparently covers your entire breast except your nipple.  If I did, I still wouldn’t breastfeed in public, but I can see how that would be incredibly convenient for those who do.  You all may be surprised to learn that I even where an udder cover at home when certain family members come to visit because it would make them so tense and uncomfortable if I were to have a bare breast out.  Is it a pain to where a cover while breastfeeding?  Yes!  I understand why you wouldn’t want to!  But please don’t be mean to me about my preference.  I am not telling you to cover up, I am not calling you nasty, I am not trying to set public breastfeeding back 50 years, I am trying to explain that we don’t all want to show our breasts, and that not everyone wants to see yours.  It’s nothing personal, and I don’t think I’m being a horrible person by trying to explain this, but I guess some of you think I am.

So, to sum up, breastfeed in public or don’t.  Use a cover or don’t.  Cover up when someone asks you or don’t.  I think everyone should do whatever they want to do with regards to breastfeeding, so please don’t think I am trying to tell you what to do.  I am not.  Okay?  Is this understood?  Everyone feeling better now?  Breathe… breathe…

From now on, I will keep my ignorant thoughts of parenting to myself and try to only post things that the majority of the world agrees on.  Anyone have a list of approved topics and opinions that I could borrow?  I must have lost mine…

Grumpy mom, out!

Zombie Apocalypse

…has nothing to do with the undead, or the sort of dead.  It is nothing more than a bunch of mothers of newborns/infants getting together.  That’s enough to frighten anyone.  With our cold, dead, glazed eyes, our inability to enunciate, the way we knock everything over, and the way we are sure to have dirt, food, spit-up, or any other thing in our way all over our clothes.  We are the zombies.  Hollywood has it all wrong.


Ever Want To Shave Your Head??

I have been itchy since the end of my pregnancy.  Hormones.. yeesh!  So along with skin itching all over, my head, neck, upper back, and shoulders have it the worst due to my long, itchy hair.  No matter how many times I put it back up, there is always hair falling out and making me so much more itchy.  AH!  I just want to have one of those super short hair cuts… but I’m just not sure I can pull it off.

I’m hoping my hormones will even out by the time she is weaned.  I am a little worried about a dip in hormones though.  I can feel my PCOS and/or my POF imbalance sneaking up on me (hot flashes like whoa).  I’m hoping it won’t affect my breast milk production.  I want to at least make it to six months, with the ultimate goal of one year.

So…. who is with me? Shall we all shave our heads now??