Four Month Wellness Check & Mastitis

Today we had our four month wellness check.  It was exciting to see how much she’s grown.  I’m not sure if everyone else gets as excited about finding out what percentile their littles ones are in, but I think it’s just about the coolest thing ever.  So little Miss Emmy is currently 10th percentile weight (12lbs 2oz), 50% percentile length (24.5″), and 90th percentile head! That is a huge noggin we’ve got here!  She is growing along the curve quite nicely though.

Now, the bad.  Since she is not yet lifting herself up during tummy time, and cannot sit up on her own yet, we are getting really low motor skill levels.  So low, in fact, that the doctor wants us to be referred to a specialist that will come to our house and work with her.  She gave us the chance to work with her for the next two months to improve.  If she’s not doing better by next time, it’s on to the specialist.  If you could measure my level of mommy fail, it would be the highest possible score.  I feel like a complete failure, like I’m letting her down.  Why haven’t I been pushing her more on tummy time?  She hates it, yes, but I guess I should have just been letting her cry through it.  Although, the last doctor we had said that as long as she is working on lifting herself off our chests, she was doing fine.  I guess that only counted for up to two months?  Ugh, so sad.  Sad mommy.

She got two shots and one oral vaccine today.  So far I haven’t had to give her Tylenol.  It’s been almost six hours since the shots, which is longer than she went last time, so maybe she won’t need it this time?  Right now she is peacefully sleeping in my lap.

The doctor thinks we should try a couple things with her sleeping.  1.  Putting her down drowsy.  Pssh.  If this girl gets set down even a little awake, she flails around and cries.  It’s a nice thought, and I’d love to be able to do that so she can learn to self soothe, but so far… pssh.  2.  Let her cry it out.  Waaah.  Mommy isn’t ready for such things.  Daddy thinks it might be a good idea, but he doesn’t get as sad as mommy does.  I know something has to give.  I don’t want her dependent on the boob to fall asleep her whole life.  Especially since my “wean by date” is sometime in July or August of next year, but I’m just not sure what to do about it yet.  The thought of bad sleep nights makes me want to cry… especially since…

I have mastitis!!  Sumbitch!  There wasn’t even a warning blocked duct to signal the oncoming storm.  *sigh* Saturday night I stood up to go upstairs and my breast felt like someone had been punching it continuously for hours and hours.  I immediately knew what was happening.  There was no knot like there is with a blocked duct.  After a restless night of trying to sleep with a painful boob, I checked it out in the mirror as soon as I woke up.  Yep, red.  Not to mention feeling like I’d been hit by a bus.  It all added up.  At 3:00 I went to Urgent Care and got my antibiotics.  Four times a day for ten days.  Wowzah!  Here’s hoping it goes away quickly!  Ain’t nobody got time for Mastitis!  Especially when they have a baby that needs super extra double time help to get to a more normalized level of motor skills.  I think it’s super unfair to judge her on her skill level just because she doesn’t lift her head up yet.  How do they expect a 10th percentile body weight baby to hold up a 90th percentile head!?  Rude!

*Sad Mama* *Pout*

I’ve Been Doing A LOT Of Not Sleeping

We have been busy… not sleeping.  We’ve been not sleeping a lot lately!  It’s really exhausting to be doing all of this not sleeping everyday!  Whew…

Due to our not sleeping, my baby girl has been very moody, and totally not interested in anything besides eating and taking lots of quicky naps.  I set her on the carpet in her play room today, and instead of immediately rolling onto her side to grab her giraffe toy, she laid on her back, didn’t move a muscle, and stared at me for 20 minutes.  No amount of prodding would convince her to play.  So I brought her into the living room, sat in my chair, and tried nursing her.  She kept drifting off, but not taking a great nap.  She won’t sleep in my lap anymore…. she wants to sleep laying down in the bed with me.  I understand, I like being upstairs better too.  I don’t mind being up there all day, but I do get quite hungry!  I need to invest in a mini fridge or some granola bars or something….

…or maybe my baby girl needs to sleep at night?  Hmm…

Tomorrow I have a play date starting at 11:30.  I’m nervous.  This is the first time in a week we’ve had plans that last a few hours.  We’ve been going up for a nap around 12:30 or 1:00 and she has been nursing for 20 minutes and napping for 2-3 hours.  What will happen tomorrow without her nap??  I mean, our nighttime sleep is pretty terrible already.  Waking up every hour and all.  I guess I will just continue to co-sleep with her in the guest bedroom until she starts sleeping longer again.  I think I’m ready for her to sleep in her crib, but there is no chance I’m getting up and running in there every hour!  Not to mention she won’t nurse in her glider, so I have to bring her into another room to nurse her….. because she won’t fall asleep without nursing!  Oh my gosh… there are so many problems with our sleeping!   Oh well… I will just say that I am SO glad that I am not having to go to work on top of this insane sleep “schedule.”  To all you mothers out there who do have to do that…. I wish I could give you all a hug and a Starbucks gift card, but since I cannot, just remember that it’s the thought that counts….

Bad Bloggy Lady

I have been quite a bad blogger lately.  I guess there hasn’t been much going on!  My little one is still not sleeping well.  The past few nights have been pretty rough, actually.  No longer than 2.5 hours at a time.  I really think this is a growth spurt.  She is very sleepy today and has been pretty moody the past few days.  Hopefully she will be back to sleeping at least 3 hours at a time soon!

So, I have been having trouble falling asleep lately.  HOW?? Does anyone else find themselves writing blog entries in their heads before falling asleep?  Only to wake up and have all of your beautiful, perfect ideas gone?  I do this EVERY night.  It is truly crazy.  You would think I could keep a good idea in my head for more than a couple minutes, but sadly I cannot.

I don’t have much else to say…. and I’m considering trying to nap along with the little one today.  I actually napped with her in the bed yesterday.  It was amazing to take a nap.  First one in 3.5 months??  I doubt I will get a repeat, but it’s worth a shot!  Too bad she is enjoying naps around 3:00.  I’d love if she would knock out around 1:00.  I’m not going to complain about her napping though.  Whenever she wants, she can nap!

Here is a picture of Emmy fighting a dinosaur…

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Etsy What??

Well, I’ve done it.  I’ve opened my Etsy shop.  Eek.  I know my things are not the best out there, as I am just starting to really get a good groove in my crocheting, and I come up with my own patterns, but I am proud of what I’ve made.  This is what I do while the little one naps!  Makes me feel like I am doing something productive, even though I’m sitting in a chair watching TV with a drooling baby in my lap!  I hope you all will check it out!

http://www.etsy.com/shop/NikMacks

Wait A Second! Wait, A Second?!

Alright, first time mommies, how are we feeling about everyone and their mothers asking when we are going to have our second?  Who says we are going to?  Why would most of us even be thinking about something like that when our babies have yet to even sleep through the night?  Seriously.  What is up?

The worst is when they don’t straight up ask, but instead make a small comment that is meant to ask the question.  Like, yesterday I was walking by the maternity store in the mall with my mother-in-law.  I had been walking around for 30 minutes, trying to get the little one to sleep because she had not slept the night before or at all during the day.  She was finally asleep, and I was walking around like a zombie lady.  I barely realized I was even in the mall.  So when we walked by the maternity store and my mother-in-law said “you don’t need anything in there!”  And I responded “Thank goodness!”  She decided to say “Well, until the next one.  Right?!”  Seriously?  I probably couldn’t have even spelled my own name at that point, and she wants me to be thinking about having another baby?  I just… I mean… What??  My baby is THREE MONTHS OLD!!  This is not the first family member to do this either, this is just the most recent story.

Here is the deal, people of the world, not everyone can have a second child, not everyone wants a second child, or maybe even both of these things.  Quit asking people.  If a person wants a second child, they will let you know.  If they don’t want a second child, they may let you know that too, or they may just not have a second child and realize that it is none of your business how many children they have.

Rant rant rant

The Pumpkin in the Pumpkin Patch

We went for a little photo shoot at the pumpkin patch today.  She did great!  She even gave us a few smiles!  She looks so tiny!  Who would think a baby would be smaller than a pumpkin!?  I wish it hadn’t been 12,000 degrees outside today, but it was so nice to be able to get these pictures!  I hope to be good about doing this every year!

Me and my beautiful baby girl!
Me and my beautiful baby girl!

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